You speak the truth, Dee.
I remember my AV trying to discourage me,
every time I heard "what will you do differently?"
or "do you have a plan, this time?"
After a roller coaster 2015 of several binges
and a maximum of only 90 consecutive days of sobriety,
I finally know what I have to do.
It only took 5000 times, but now I've got it.