Hi All, I just want to check in for Day 1. I met up with an old drinking buddy last night as she's having problems with her marriage. I matched her drink for drink but she's got a much higher tolerance than I have now. I can't believe I was so silly to think I could meet up with her and my sobriety would stay intact. I feel dreadful now, so anxious worrying if the neighbours saw me staggering home from the local pub which I went to alone after I'd finished with my friend. Panicking cos I saw someone I knew in there and that will mean my dirty little secret may be out and everyone will find out I'm an alcoholic. When does the fear go? How can I ensure that it won't overwhelm me and make me fall off the wagon again?