Calling in sick to Christmas
I'm so tempted to "call in sick" to Christmas tomorrow. At the risk of sounding whiny, I don't want to see any family. Thanksgiving was a nightmare and I'm craving personal space. This has been on my mind all day and I got kind of emotional. I feel obligated to go see them but I'm also feeling like I'm not in a good space.
This is the side of the family that I didn't grow up with and they were never really around. What happened to me when I was a kid is irrelevant to them...they make excuses why they weren't responsible, but as an adult they guilt trip me if I don't act like I'm one of their tribe, and act as if everything's normal.
I don't want to just have a pity party; I want to improve my own life. I'm not sure exactly why I'm compelled to cut them out of it.