Originally Posted by
ultradad 
WOW, so more stress arguing with the wife and get this, I actually tried to talk myself into drinking!!! Funny thing is, I couldn't...every thought I tried to process about the 'reasons' to drink my mind fought back with way better reasons not to! Scary that I even tried though...
Glad I didn't in the end, made it home and did a workout and feel much better knowing I'll wake up sober and that I didn't allow the AV to derail me!
This disease is a scary illness!
Great job Ultra- this disease is scary! It not only causes a lot of arguing with our spouses, but then wants us to drink to get through it!
I'm glad the meditation worked! It's tough to sit that long. I'll PM you about the book. I had a CD years ago on guided meditation, but I'm sure I tossed it. I think I received it from a doctor friend of mine who is really into a holistic approach. I'll contact him , and if my memory is correct (50-50) and I did get it from him, I'll ask him about copies for anybody who might be interested.
Kiki-ahhhh you reminded me.... I totally forgot a meeting today. Rats!
Patricia- I'm glad you're feeling much better!
Enfin-how are you today?