I'm utterly shocked that a couple days ago I was surrounded by free booze and people that were wasted yet I wasn't inclined to take a drink but here I am on the cusp of returning to my old ways. I find that pretty scary.
I'm not shocked. The AV isn't very smart but it's incredibly cunning.
It's visceral not intelligent.
The time after I'd had any kind of sober success was the time my inner addict tried to catch me off guard.
I can;t tell you the number of times I went to the pub, or a party and stayed sober only to drink the next day or a few days later.
the thing is Tufty - you didn't do that - you stood your ground....and that, and your self awareness, bodes pretty well for you in my estimation
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