You guys sure have a lot going on. The holidays are always crazy but so wonderful. I have one more day of work tomorrow, then I get to focus on Christmas.
I wish my mind weren't so polluted with negative thoughts right now. It definitely takes some of the joy out of the holiday. It's like looking at a beautiful scene through dirty glasses. And I hate that this problem I'm having right now casts a shadow over the holiday, I'm afraid I will look back on it and find the memory tainted by my struggle and everyone's concern over my weight. My husband had some brief but serious words with me tonight about his fear for my health, and I had nothing to say except I know. Now I feel uncomfortable around him at a time when I want to feel close, and maybe even a little romantic. I'm really kicking myself for causing this problem, especially during the holidays. I'm afraid I'm going to have that guilt like Mark describes after you drink too much and it taints your memory of a nice event.
I had cancelled an appointment with a dietician a while back because I thought it was pointless as I could eat normally if I chose to, but now I'm considering making another appointment because I'm finding that I actually can't seem to eat normally anymore even when I try. I've really screwed my body up. Figures. Addiction...same old story.
Anyway, just dropped in to be a great big downer. You're welcome!
Best to you guys, and let's all enjoy these next few days, they are precious.