Small consolation for the other thread closing as I wrote an incredible, long, super articulate post. The kind of post that would have solved life, the universe and everything. Sorry guys.
Duff, go for it!! An aa meeting is a great place to head if you are still feeling even the least bit shaky. Don't worry about who you'll see, what they'll say, what you'll say. It's a lot like here, but with faces.
the face to face interaction is very comforting.