Originally Posted by
patricia68 
Good morning. My husband and I had another argument yesterday, we even discussed divorce this time. I don't even know what to think anymore...I feel like I'm witnessing a car crash in slow motion...
Trying to find something positive in all this madness...I am sober, I can think clearly...and even though I still have anxiety, it's not the paralyzing panic I used to feel while I was drinking.
My whole world is falling apart but at least my body is healing and I'm stronger.
Maybe all these years of drinking destroyed my marriage, maybe it was already broken and I didn't see it because I was drinking...I don't know. I'll try to leave the past behind today and focus on healing and being sober right here right now...
Patricia, I am sorry you are going through this with your husband. You are worth all respect for staying sober through this time! You are so strong!
I hope you and your husband with time can work something out that will make the both of you feel happier. I don't think you should think too much about what came first - the marriage problems or your drinking. For me, in similar situations I often tend to think it was a little bit of both, maybe a vicious circle.
The good thing is that you have taken alcohol from the picture. No matter what happens with you that is the basis for a good future for you! I'm sure it will work out alright!