Friday night and checking in. My wife's gone to a friends to 'enjoy a glass of wine'...ouch, that hurts. I told her to enjoy and take all of the wine in the house with her, not because I'm tempted to drink it alone, just that I'm tired of looking at it, especially on a melancholy Friday night at home during the festive season. It just depresses me to see alcohol and be reminded that I can't have it anymore, never under any circumstances. Such permanency to those thoughts but I know it's the only path to survive and hopefully true happiness....
Stay strong through the weekend folks. Know that you are not alone, even if you feel that way. There's lots of us out there, fighting the same battle, anxiety, shame, depression, remorse, sadness. The sober ones tell us it gets better so we'd better just tough it out and trust them...