Stay strong Camryn. I understand family issues all to well, and have drank many times over it. And it never solved a darn thing.
Here's a crazy thought running through my head. Yesterday, my day 1, was 12/9. That's 2 days before a childhood friend of mine's birthday, who I have a deep resentment towards. I hate that my sober date is so close to his birthday, that drinking at a future date to reset my sober day is actually rattling around in my head. I guess that's alcoholic thinking.