Originally Posted by
endlesspatience 
OK I did a couple of the suggestions. I read the BBook, read the Alan Carr smoking book again and did some exercise at the gym. I feel calmer about things than yesterday.
I also called my sponsor and we will try to meet on Friday evening.
It's just little steps at this stage.
I think little steps are good. My experience of giving up smoking was far smoother than yours but the last time I stopped drinking I was an absolute nightmare. I was so, so resentful of anyone that was drinking. I remember going to see family and just staring at my dad's glass of red wine and really feeling this rush of anger at him.
You're doing what you can to address it and I think finding a decent counselor would be a good option.