Dear Snooz; what an ordeal; my heart just ached when I read your account. I hope that you are able to get home soon.
Untreated alcoholism only gets worse; we are all living proof of that. It has to stop; there is no other way.
I cannot bear to think of this disease winning the battle with you.
Dee and the others are right; it's time to pull out all the stops, sweet Snooz, and save your life.