I didn't mean to run you off Snooz.
I don't know what the answer is - beyond knowing that you have to be prepared to fight for who you are.
I know you've lost a lot of this last year - but I can't help feeling like you've lost sight of the good things you still have - people who love you, people who need you to be around, a good heart, and a fighting spirit.
This is a fight to the death Wendy - it needs more than declarations, and plans -
it needs commitment to change - it needs
action.
To win the fight you may have to do things you don't want to do - you'll certainly do things that your addiction will not want you to do, and It will kick back hard.
you're worth the trouble tho - you're worth the effort
I've lost too many SR friends already. I don't want to lose another.
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