My anxiety used to be bad when I woke up too Patricia. I'm really hoping that once you get through the benzo taper things will even out for you.
Originally Posted by
strangeangel 
I'm back at day 1 today. I have had a terrible week. I don't want to drink anymore, and I just can't stop myself. Thought I could, but I can't. I hate being drunk and I hate being hungover. I hope I can learn. Any advice on how to realllllyyy commit, bc I've half- assed it the past few times. I really need to do it this time. I want my life back. Wish me luck. I'm going to go back on Antabuse, but right now I don't feel like I'll ever beat if.
There's a lot of ways to commit I think. Committing to posting here before you drink is something I did.
That link that I post fairly often about making a recovery plan is good too, as is the link about cravings.
you can find all that and more in this thread:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...at-we-did.html
There's other things outside of SR tho - you could see your Dr, or a counsellor, or join a recovery group like AAor one of the many alternatives...you could even look at rehab programmes, inpatient and outpatient.
whatever you have to do to take drinking as a viable option off the table is worth it, I think
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