hi Maximus, just read a couple of your posts. Sounds like you have a lot to juggle. You are 100% right, drinking is not going to fix anything and will probably make things a lot worse. Especially with your son and grandkids around. Stay resolute to stay dry above all else.
You know, you also have a lot of positives there. You live in a decent country. You have your family around you. Your husband is still working. You are healthy. You are not drinking. That sounds a lot like heaven to a lot of people. Please try to stay positive.