I have no desire to drink. In fact, I feel stronger than ever because I know I now have a long tough road ahead of me in which sobriety is an absolute must. He will try to use my alcoholism to keep my child from me. He is an addict/alcoholic too. And it will end up being who has the most evidence of the others' drunken behavior, which unfortunately he probably does because he's a gadget guy and has probably been recording me more than I know. Ugh this is awful.