Pams and Keepnitreal, thanks for sharing! I also find it hard to know which came first, I think the depression, but alcohol certainly made it worse. And now I am not sure what is normal anymore.
I think I will start trying the natural herbs but if it doesn't work, I agree with you pams, better to try different medications than to keep going like this. Because in the long run I guess it could make me relapse. As long as we keep moving forward!