Thank you kzaug! I think you're right...he seems very confident but who knows what goes through his mind...
He quit smoking cigarettes 3 weeks ago. Now he's vaping but with no nicotine, just flavored e-juice...and now that you mentioned, his mood has been horrible. I know that quitting nicotine is tough, I can't even do it myself!, but I didn't think it would cause depression and so much anger. He was grouchy before, but since he quit it has been a living hell...
I know he won't get help though. He is too proud to go to couples counselling or even a doctor. He won't even take cold medicine...
I am going to try and focus on finding happiness myself. And try to believe that I'm worth it...I just don't know how. How do I love myself again? Maybe working on my addictions, working on being clean and sober...I don't know...