Originally Posted by
enfinthechange 
Tea. ... of course! Stopped panicking now I have firmly decided no!
Enfin good! I think that it is imperative that you do not drink! Words mean little compared to action. You have said that the alcohol is to blame for the mess you are in, why go back to it? Stay sober, get out of the house if you need to. Serious talks are best left for when both parties are sober.