Originally Posted by enfinthechange

Second morning... despair is still hanging around like a bad smell. .. I somehow can't feel anything yet also lurch from wanting to laughter to wanting to cry to wanting to die. My husband still won't talk to me. I am free falling, yet carrying on as normal with the kids. I read posts here and burst into tears. I don't know if I can succeed in not drinking, but I know everything depends on it, and you guys are my best bet.... We done everyone on every tiny victory, every time u don't pick up its like a snowball. . The strength just gets bigger! I need you all today very much as i think I would do something stupid else.... thank you all x