Oh! I forgot to mention, I chatted with one of my Dr. friends, and he said to keep an eye out for that anxiety about drinking. It's a sign of a past addict - they have incredible anxiety about falling off the wagon. I don't like the word "addict" in this situation, but I appreciate being able to apply that theory to the "blackouts" - I have anxiety about blacking out again.
PS. One of my best friends (I was pretty much the only girl in Winston who could drink like him), is slowly hopping on the sober train. He described me as the little sister he never had, especially in our tolerances. He screwed up good, got fired, and is now quickly cutting out alcohol. We had a long talk about the detox process and since I'm getting closer to that whole month, sharing my story helps so much to get it all out.
We all have amazing stories to share, even if they get dark, we are climbing a ladder to happy.
Enjoy your Saturdays, I'm pulling a 13 hr shift. Wish me luck!