Originally Posted by
Dee74 
Do you need to attend all these parties Midton?
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I actually think I do need to attempt at least some on them, the family ones for example. Mentally there are others that might be in my best interests to attend.
Others thought I might very well need, I'm not sure. I am so isolated here and have no real native friends and very few western ones. I am lonely. The 4 month winter has begun which means there is nothing to do around do here. I am bored. I work hard and want and desire/need some release or reward at the end of the week. I have zilch.
I'm on remote control with the speed stuck at slow. My life is fine now but dull. I'm searching for something to replace the escape of alcohol.
Today I was up at six, went to the gym and have just eaten. The weather is a bleak mix of hail, wind, rain and bitter cold. This city doesn't even have any decent shopping. I want a hedonistic splurge of some sore. I'm panicking that I'm wasting my weekends (and life) doing nada.