Well, I'm glad the work day is a wrap. I had to hear about alcohol all day. What everybody needs from the liquor store, what they are going to make with it, how much they are looking forward to it. At one point all I could think was enough already! I knew I wasn't going to come home and start drinking, but I am having a feeling I can't identify. I don't know if it's being sad about not drinking for the holiday like so many other people are, or if I'm just tired after a long day. Maybe it's a little nostalgia for when I didn't worry about drinking because I only did it 4 times a year. Those days are long gone and they are never coming back. I do still wonder how people can drink one night then carry on like normal the next day. If I drank tonight, I would start drinking again first thing in the morning and not stop until I go to bed. Then I'd be trying to leave work early on Friday to start drinking again and drink all weekend. And before I know it, I'd be wondering if I have to go back to rehab to quit 'cuz I can't stop on my on. Fear is a strong motivator for me- the fear that if I start again, it will likely be a long time before I stop. I don't want to go through that again. I'm amazed that I've made it two months. That is very good. Keep going. I have so many great reasons to stick with it, and not one good reason to go back. Ok, I think that was my pep talk to myself. Thanks for listening : )