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Old 11-25-2015, 12:32 PM
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patricia68
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I had a close call.

My husband is in a bad mood, we had an argument...my anxiety got out of control, I was shaking, my head spinning, I wanted to throw up.

Then I went for a walk. I stopped at the liquor store. But I didn't get in. I kept walking.

I had all intentions of buying wine, and then I remembered the last night I drank. The shakes, the sweats, the panic attacks...

I know I should be proud of myself for not buying alcohol, but I'm actually mad at myself. I ruined it. I ruined my brain, my mental health, I ruined drinking "normally".

I'm feeling hopeless right now. Everybody says it's going to get better...but when? I've been in this roller coaster for months, years...I don't know what "normal" is anymore...I don't know what peace of mind is anymore...
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