Originally Posted by Neverthought

There's one way to start and that's getting help and support and that's right here on SR rah. I'm in the cycle too. I tried to pull myself out of it, I mean really hard, but to no avail. The last three weeks I've said this is it and went the week without, but then the weekend came. This is opposite of how I usually function. I usually struggle during the week (you know coming home from work and wanting to release) and not the weekend. So, that has me worried and perplexed. Sometime I worry that I missed the sobriety boat because I blew some great efforts in the past. Anyway..............