I still have difficult days too, so I can relate. Just with me, it's like how Dee says, drinking is not on my menu. It's completely off the table. It's not a "go to" for me. If I wanted to drink I definitely could, as there's always some form of alcohol in my fridge. I just don't, not an option. I have read that "when you want to stop drinking as bad as you want the air you breathe, you'll quit drinking". It rang through to me. Also I read "You want to stop starting over, stop picking it up". I am a quote person..quotes seem to make a lot of sense with very little words, brevity...
Get up, brush off..you do have to look at it and figure out another plan because that plan didn't work. You need different tools for you toolbox as Dee would say.
Can't live in a drunk life sober.