Sick of disappointing people
I am just so sick of this cycle of disappointing everyone, then
recovering, then doing some wonderful things for others, then
rewarding myself with some late night binging, which turns
into a full weekend of it with all the horrible side effects.
It is true that slowly you will eventually lose everything because
the trust will go, then goes the friendships, the business
relationships, the job, the liver, the finances. In my mid-50's
when so many of the life-long drinkers start croaking, and
I don't want to be one of those. The buzz just ain't worth it.
And the apologies to friends and family and a loving SO . . .
it just has to stop now.
Thank you for all being here - I can't seem to find a meeting that
suits me though I do see the value of being with others.
And here we are. I am dedicated to keeping up with this one.