Midton, I know, real cravings come and go like tides, hard to stand in spite of them, but finite.
I also know what you mean about the loss of how special it is to wake up again sober. It fades in time. That's part of what they mean when they say we forgot so quickly, I think. I forgot. Then I drank again and remembered.
So let me remind you: You can wake up and take either fifteen minutes or *at least eight hours* (of misery) to feel alert, awake, and normal again. Up to you.
Let me be this thread's spelunker in recent relapses. I've been to that room in this here cave, and I don't recommend it. :p