Hello Jackie you can make that hopefully a proberly a certainty
You are identifying your AV which is good but time to counteract the AV do not let it fester sounds like you have taken precautions ie the podcast & the walking which will make you feel superpositive plus healthier is a great way to counter your witching hour of 4pm
Other things that will help is 2 mantras 'I don't drink' 'No matter what I will not drink'
Urge surfing will seriously when you feel the urge or compulsion to drink or even a panic attack
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...e-surfing.html
Of course interacting with us on the many forums here at SR esp the weekender thread
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...weekender.html
Have you joined the class of November ?
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-part-2-a.html
And finally a bit from my own personal experience
Friday nights in sobriety were at first tough the whole why me schick lol then as weeks turned to month & months I started to realise that I wasn't missing out but I was actually gaining, pieces of myself were coming bk I started to go cinema, we go to the theatre once in a while i started to get right bk into cuisine I love food in sobriety lol
I can't promise you every day is going to be awesome but it is what you make it and if you stay sober youl know exactly what I mean
We'll be with you the whole way tonight
Have you got a plan ? you can ask the mods here they are wise kind & friendly XO