The emotions Saskia! Not cravings. Emotions are just killing me! I keep telling myself I'm making stuff up, everything is fine, life is calm cool collected..but my insides keep telling me- no they're not! You're crazy! Nobody likes you. Nobody wants to spend time with you. The fear. The jealousy. The trust, lack there of. Ugh. It drives me crazy. Not only that it's emotionally draining!
Like I said I'm not giving in, there's not an option for that. But the happiness, I miss it. Where did it go!! Come back!!