Originally Posted by
Juno11 
I'm scared of this beast - this insidious beast. I drank tonight. I don't have a good reason - is there ever a good reason? Built up pressure I think. Everything's gone - will start up again tomorrow. This is hard.
I'm glad you're OK now Juno. You're right, this can be hard, but don't give up. I've failed literally hundreds of times to quit, but I will never give up. As Dee points out, the beast (the cravings) can't hurt you.
My beast has been pestering me these last week or so. I'm not sure why it's doing so now when I was fine the first few weeks of sobriety, but I know it will quiet down in time. So I accept that while I may be annoyed by it now, I don't have to submit to its demands. And neither do you.
Next time you have thoughts of drinking, come here. Someone will be here to offer a shoulder to lean on.