That's great Arbor. When you say you feel always "on" and would like a break I'm hearing that you want a break from life? And you used to get that by drinking? I get that. I used to take a "break" everyday after work. Didn't do my wife and stepson any good. I'm really enjoying the sober life. But it doesn't make the stress of life go away. I'm learning, slowly, better ways to deal with that stress. I do have to say that so far the urge to drink has been minimal. It just isn't going to make my life any better.