Originally Posted by forabetterlife

Hi everyone... I love reading all the Satisfaction you all feels from a sober Sunday,
It inspires me

I am hitting reset today. Self hatred will not help me right now. It's a new day and I'm ready to be done with this. I can't drink safely. I accept that. My Av tells me "just today", and it never is. And if I drink on the weekend, I often start before noon. I've never admitted that before but I have to.

When I am in a drinking phase I am wasting my time, my life, just zoning out and struggling through the days til I can get home and drink more . I like to think I'm better than that, but I'm not. It's my secret, somehow I function and get it all done but it's no way to live.

I know you all understand. And I am grateful to be here and for your support. I talk and write about it so much, but it's time to do it. Not for 3 days and then blow it. I have the tools. It's up to me. Sorry for my desperation. It's just time .