Hi and welcome,
You have to want to be sober more than you want to drink.
The euphoria from 2 or 3 or 15 drinks wears off in about an hour or so....than you have the next 23 to 96 or more to regret it...
Doesn't make sense...alcohol is poisen.
It is the analytical mind vs the animal mind...
If you need a dr., see one.
Stop being a prisoner to booze. Stop being a drunk today.
Be proudly sober.