yes, have given it a lot of thought. I have to admit that this time it is for real. I have always held onto the idea that I could drink again in the future. As a result I have been living a double life...finding ways and times where i can drink where no one that knows the 'sober' me will see. As I reread that, I can't believe how pathetic that sounds.
This time around, I will make people aware of the fact that I know longer drink...and will have a deeper conversation with those closest to me. I have a great family/friends/colleagues, and I know that all will be supportive. Most importantly, their awareness makes me accountable. Something that i have been avoiding for a long, long, time. I have long feared a life without drinking...I am working on embracing a life where I can be honest, healthy, and happy. Thanks for the support on this site.