Yea, we cheat on ourselves - that's really the issue. No one will know, except for me....
In your other post you mentioned meetings - is this AA? Do you have numbers to call, people to talk to when you feel this way - a sponsor??
These are some of the human "tools" we refer to , along with the spiritual took kit in AA.
I do have a sponsor and I should have called her, but made the choice not to. Will she want to hear from me now or do I need to find a new sponsor? Thanks to all of you for your support. I really thought I had this weekend without the family under control, but once I got the idea I didn't even try to fight it and that's what has me so frightened!