"When you want recovery as bad as you want the air you breathe, then you will stay clean." ~Backfromtheledge
Patricia, you are NOT worthless, everything is NOT your fault. You ARE worth good things, you ARE worth love, kindness, caring. You ARE worth sobriety and recovery. Wouldn't it just be the best revenge in the world to be sober and working recovery and be able to look at your husband and tell him to screw off? Do something for YOU for a change. Make yourself better and there's no comparison how terrible he will feel. Then the playing field will change and YOU will be the coach not him. "Hello, I heard you were a player..I AM THE COACH!" The best revenge against someone is doing exactly what they say you'll never do cause you're a failure! Come on Patricia! You've got heart and soul! Show these people what you're made of! Quit letting them dull your shine girl! Please!