It was not a good week but i am hopeful next week will be better.
My kind sister in law sent me a little money towards the rent and I am grateful. She is not judgmental like my sisters are. But i still owe a whole month of rent i am behind on. There is some seasonal work but most of it is at night and i cannot work at night because I have no childcare. I just lost my childcare in the daytime too and cant afford the one at the school. I wrote the principal and asked him if there is a scholarship but i likely cannot afford that until i am working again.
Every week is such a stressful struggle but it has to improve. Thank you for the kind support and advice here.
I am trying to detach and take things one day at a time so it doesnt overwhelm me. Its very hard but I know i can do it. My daughter keeps me going.. she is amazing and joyful.