Aww FABL. I think the hardest part is admitting to ourselves. Our addiction doesn't want us to admit there's a problem, or we went and drank again...to addiction, we are entitled, no one needs to know, I did it for my own reasons....it goes on and on.
I remember lurking here when I was on a binge, wanting so much to reconnect with my friends, but my addiction not wanting to hear anything about stopping, or being made to feel I had to stop. It's such an isolating thing, I think you and Ladybug are brave to post. I never could when I was in that mindset and that makes it worse, well, it did for me.