Sorry Venus, I meant to acknowledge way, way back that I'm sorry to hear about your job. Try not to be disheartened. Bob and I did that walk last year. Not fun. Hugs honey.xx
FABL, I must say. The fear of forever and not ever "getting" that mysterious, elusive feeling of contentment scared me too. Then I realised, you don't start a sport, say golf, expecting a hole in one straight off, or an Olympic gold medal the minute you dip your toe in the pool. I realised I didn't have to "get it" straight away, but what was more important was diligently trying to do better, to know better from my mistakes and falls. And like everyone said, we are here, no matter what. That makes all the difference.