Hi I just wanted to say I'm not doing well emotionally. I feel like I'm doomed. I had this wonderful daughter 16 years ago and she had so much promise and intelligence and she has royally f'cked up her life. I'm sad tonight. To be honest, I haven't wanted to drink at all. I know it would make me sadder and sick and all that, so I'm not doing that to myself. That's one good thing. Day 15. And I've learned a lot and know that drinking would be my downfall and I need to be strong and clear headed. So that's what I'm doing. My dream was to have a wonderful daughter. She has been nothing but heartache, headache and trouble for the last few years. I hope and pray my sons will be easier. Even the one with autism. Yes, I can handle him. Sorry guys, but just so sad right now. Maybe I'll be able to cry? It's hard for me to cry.