Home from my night out. I'm still sober, more by luck than design. Not sure how I feel at present.
I went out at 7 and was home by 10:30. I went to the bar really unsure of what would happen. I knew there was an evens chance that I might drink. I decided to order a water first and see what happened. I then got a bit of bad news by email (annoying bad not serious bad) and I felt like this was to sign to give up and drink, out of spite really. I didn't though. In fact I didn't drink anything else.
We went to another bar and I continued with another water. By now the night was beginning to drag and I was getting tired. Had I been drinking I would have been buzzing at this time, tonight though I was just waiting to get home.
I'm sure I'll feel better tomorrow but I feel a little depressed just now. Tomorrow will be my 50th day and the fact that I didn't drink tonight will make it harder for me to drink again.
Sitting at home as I type binging on chocolate, marshmallows and popcorn.