I'm so glad to hear from you Leshar
Rather than beating yourself up for letting people down, rememeber that you're entitled to some TLC and self care too
You're just as important as anyone else here.
I'm sorry you're still struggling with things. I wish I knew what the answer was and I'd give it to you freely.
I'm going to pray that this time you'll find the right apprach, or find someone who can help you find that right approach
take care Leshar- you're an integral part of this thread and we love you
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