Pearl,
I can relate. I've been in recovery coming up on two years, but something I heard in rehab 2 1/2 years ago still sticks: TIME - Things I Must Earn. And I have learned that time takes time, and it is not my time schedule, it is my Higher Power's.
Shestruggles,
I have also learned that the answers I seek are within me, and not in any text or any speech or poem, or anything else outside of myself. My Higher Power is within me and therefore everything I need is within me.
I wish you both the best, keep coming back and more will be revealed, as the Big Book says.
Kevin