V you are learning to live without a lot of the companionship you've had in the past. That's incredibly hard and disorienting. As Dee said, I think you have very good things in your future, and it doesn't sound like your partner was the right person to support your growth. I believe that when one door closes, another opens. And when it closes with a slam, that just confirms there's no going back, only forward to a better place. I've lost relationships in the past and felt such intense loss, but now I see how much I gained by moving on and seeing value in myself independent of the relationship. You will move forward and add people to your life who will love and support you in the right ways. I know you will.