Oh, V, had no idea about all the personal stuff. You have had so many losses this year, with your partner and your father. But I did not know the drama of your breakup was still lingering. BTDT With prolonged breakups. It is hard. Sometimes we need people, and other times, not many around. It's so hard.
But if we can, it gets so much better to find people who lift us up. It's very hard, and sometimes, we are alone. But, I have been much happier alone than when in my bad relationships.
How can I/we support you? Sending you big hugs.