Recovery is a journey. It is not all uphill...I am sure you have heard the onion analogy. We keep peeling away layers all through our lives.
I suspect you are at a new phase in your recovery and until you do a little more soul searching (yes....again), speak to you sponsor and go back to the 1st step you will continue to feel the way you are.
Al Anon here...10 years...and I have done my own share of backtracking and it always goes back to the basics, and relearning them whether I want to or not.
((hugs))
JT