Struggling...I just don't get it!
Today....I just feel desperate. I just don't get it. I am really working at sobriety, I've worked hard all of my life so that bit doesn't frighten me. I've worked in some jobs where you really have to take a "good look" at things, life, yourself...and I just don't get it. I was a pediatric oncology nurse for many years, I'm retired from that and have moved into economics which is stimulating and lucrative. I'm very involved in my program, AA and step work, community service. I'm young, healthy, intelligent, well educated, creative, beautiful and I still don't get it! I have a great husband, supportive family and friends, live in a exotic enviroment and ????? My life is all questions...no answers.
I feel as if I put in enough hours soul-searching, that I might feel more positive and up beat...but I've just felt very depressed and unmotivated for the last 3 weeks. It's just so hard, thanks for letting me vent.
Love Pearl