BF, I've had some similar experiences and felt a great deal of frustration over them. I consider myself to be a very honest person (except when I was drinking!). I, too, wanted to drink to blot out the frustration that I couldn't get someone to believe me and the hurt that people would believe that of me. Mostly I've learned to keep my head up, try to feel as if what matters is what I know to be true and then wait for things to quiet down. I have no idea if that's a good approach or not. I'd love to find better ways to deal with that. (((Hugs)))!