Ugghh.. 6am, and have 3 cups of coffee in me. Wake up at 4am to go to the bathroom, and think, "hey, let's start sucking back the coffee". Probably not the greatest idea I've ever had. heh.
Sadie, glad to hear you found your ring. Sounds like you're feeling better than a couple days ago, yeah? Hang in there.
Clownbaby, congrats on 2 months. That's awesome!
kitty, sounds like you're doing well, and kudos to putting yourself out there with the dating. I'll be right there with you shortly, once I get my teeth fixed. There's gotta be someone out there for both of us. Although not sure, as I'm somewhat of the mindset that loves find you, you don't find it.
patricia, how are you doing? Sounds like you're doing better, or even keeled at least?
Van, glad your brother seems to be improving at least. Hopefully he's back on his feet in short time.
Retread, how are you doing? How's the self employment coming along?
I don't know, but god damn I feel good. Feel renewed for some reason, ready to take on life again. I'll admit, I have cheated, and snuck a few beers at night here and there. Sorry, and I know I shouldn't, but this loneliness and isolation can be a killer, but working on changing that starting basically today. However, I haven't touched whiskey or hard liquor since my last detox, and that's really the only thing I can contribute to feeling as good as I do.
I don't know, but yeah... house is 100% in order and cleaned, I'm on top of work, and ready to start putting myself out there in life again. Spiritual side in my seems to have awakened again, which is great. Miss that part of me, because that's the part that makes me strong and capable enough to do anything I put my mind to.
I think the last time I felt this strong I was 19, and just starting my first company. Went from a poor, laid off landscaper due to winter with no high school diploma who was making $8.50/hour, to $35k/month within 5 months. Was pretty cool.
I highly doubt I'll be able to do that again, mainly due to age and globalization, but nonetheless, should be able to setup a decent shop again. Have a good vision in mind, and it's basically already done. Have an excellent infrastructure and development network here that I started back in 2006, and have revised and upgraded since, loads of code written, and just need to package everything up and get it to market. I miss the days when I would wake up to find out I made $2000 in orders while sleeping.
Can't neglect the spiritual side of myself this time though, because doing so will be the beginning of the end. This is why both, Buddhism and volunteer work are going to become crucial aspects in my life going forward. I know full well how my mind can get away from me, so I need to ensure I keep myself grounded and balanced.
Ok... I think I'm done being an eccentric nut job for now. Anyone else?